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About Me Member Procrastinator aiyashiya21/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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A psychotic break is on the horizon.

Mon Jan 18, 2010, 10:44 PM
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Robert Cacciapaglia
  • Reading: Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk
I'm trying really really hard to find enough good things to outweigh the bad things...
It's not working.

Good
I got 4,000 pageviews. Woot.
My boyfriend and I just celebrated 2 years.


All of this wonderful business has been handled. :D :D :D :D :D
The state discontinued two of my scholarships.
That means I can't afford to go to school this semester.
That also means they'll be wanting me to pay back my loans about now.
I can't get another loan... because I can't register.
I can't register... because I owe the school money.
See how wonderfully circular that is.



Bad
I have writer's block.
My dad has been out of work for over a year.
My car is dead.
Not that I had car insurance anyway.
I have no health insurance either.
That means I can't afford my prescriptions.
That means I'm getting sicker.
"Sick?" You say. "What are you sick with?" I am sick with Dysautnomia... which means I'm also sick with Peripheral Neuropathy and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome.
"What's that?" You say.
THAT SUCKS. That's what that is.
But it's not just me, you see. It's my mother too.
My room has no door.
That means I have no privacy.
That means half my clothes are missing.
That means my sister told all of Facebook what's in my closet.
I haven't had real sleep in a week.
I have to work tomorrow... for my $4 an hour job because I can't get SSI.
Maybe I'll pass out again and get the week off...
But I need the money.
I had to use my might-as-well-be-nonexistant savings to buy Christmas for the siblings that still believe in Santa Clause.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Tel'aran'rhiod
  • Interests: Reading, Writing, Anime, Music and Daydreaming.
  • Favourite band or musician: Rammstein, Muse, BassHunter, and Robert Cacciapaglia
  • Favourite genre of music: Techno or Classical
  • Favourite poet or writer: Too many...
  • Operating System: Windows XP and Kubuntu Linux
  • Favourite game: World of Warcraft
  • Favourite gaming platform: My super wonderful computer.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Vincent Law (Ergo Proxy) and Tessa (FMP)

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Comments


:icongirlonthemoon15:
aiyashiya, Are you pagan (noticed your comments)? I’m just asking because I am. :)

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Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, take chances, and never have regrets, because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted...
:iconaiyashiya:
I am not. I am however curious what exactly made you think I was. Lol.

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Don't tell anyone, but on the pagan day of the sun got Ra, I kneel at the foot of an ancient instrument of torture and consume ritualistic symbols of blood and flesh. ~ Robert Langdon (The Lost Symbol)
Please check out my poetry. :D
:icongirlonthemoon15:
I thought you might be because of your quote below the comments.

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Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, take chances, and never have regrets, because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted...
:iconaiyashiya:
Oooh. The quotes actually about Christianity. It's saying that anything can look strange from an outsider's point of view. It's from the book The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown. In case you don't know, the pagan day of the sun god Ra is well... Sunday. The ancient instrument of torture is the crucifix and the ritualistic symbols of blood and flesh is Holy Communion. I had a lot of my friends ask me about this too. Lol.

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Don't tell anyone, but on the pagan day of the sun got Ra, I kneel at the foot of an ancient instrument of torture and consume ritualistic symbols of blood and flesh. ~ Robert Langdon (The Lost Symbol)
Please check out my poetry. :D
:iconalterego1629:
Thank you for the devwatch :)

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¥~*I do not like the feeling that I am feeling while I'm feeling it
and when I'm done feeling it for the moment I won't feel wrong for feeling it,but right now I feel it and it feels wrong.*~¥ - (E.Soileau)
:iconyin-yangshadowdragon:
Thanks!

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go along with your lives
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thanks for the favs!!
:iconthegirlinthebigbox:
:iconthegirlinthebigbox::icondevwatchplz:

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:iconeminem-m-m:
thanks for the watch!!! :hug:

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~:heart:When life gives you lemons make orange juice, then sit back and watch as people wounder how you did it... :heart:~
:iconmattycake:
So i was bored,
therefore, I'm Matt, what's up?:P

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